In the past few days, I have experienced things for the first time, seen things I've never seen before. It wasn't really the easiest at the moment, and honestly, even at the present. But keeping the big picture in mind, and not just thinking about this minute, it is good. It gives me hope. I know that there is some good out there, and I can find it.
The thing that gets me is that, sometimes, what you want, and what you want now, don't match. It doesn't make any sense to me how that works. Its like saying you can put two pieces of the puzzle together, and they fit! Okay, now you have to put them into place with the rest of the puzzle--now they don't fit. It defys logic. I am a passionate girl--you'd be kidding yourself if you thought otherwise. I am passion, but I am smart too. I am logical. It mystifies me.
My schedule has not lightened up much. It is still hectic, and I should be doing something just about every second of the day, but I have found myself not being able to focus on anything! Everything is taking me so much longer to get done. I can't focus, but the crazy thing is, I can't tell you what in the world I'm thinking about or doing that's occupying all my time. I will look down at my book, daze out into my own, unknown thoughts, and when I look up, almost two hours have gone by. That's not good. I better get some weights strapped to my feet to keep me here in reality. I don't have time for day dreaming. Day dreaming gets me into too much trouble.
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
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I love the puzzle metaphor. It is perfect, real, and a perfectly, real pain in the backside. Fortunately, sometimes, puzzle pieces that seem to fit so beautifully in the short term turn out to be not only the wrong fit, but pieces from two entirely different puzzles. I have seen that again and again in my life. Just keep plugging. Take time to exercise. Take time to play. All work and no play makes Jack (or Jill) not only dull, but crazy. You're okay. Passion and Reason are not mutually exclusive. Used together -- it's powerful. Go get 'em. We're cheering you on. You still have an open invite for Halloween too.
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