Life.

screw it.

The End.

(deep breath)

Just Go With It...

Have you ever had one of those moments when things just felt right?  You could just be laying there, & it dawns on you?

Well today was a day for those moments!  It happened a few times.  It is such an awesome feeling to have all your doubts or insecurities to just go away, & you're just left feeling happy.  I will share one of the times that this happend today.

I get off work, after working 8 hours with two of my friends, and I wind up talking to the same girl I worked with on facebook & texting, at the same time (yeah we're kind of dorks, but it works for us). haha. It just kinda hits me.  This is the friend I always wanted.  I haven't always had the most reliable friends, but here I am, 21 years old, & I finally found the best friend I wished for growing up.  I guess its never to late to get what you want!

Britni Kay freakin Canfield, you are my dream come true! How loved do you feel, now? lol

Just kiddin dear, but really, thanks for always being there for me, thru thick & thin, & all hours of the day/night, no matter the craziness or randomness! :)

Our Late Turkeyday (& What Matters Most- Harry Potter!)

This last week was Thanksgiving.  Mom, Ro, & Alexa got here late Wednesday night, early Thursday morning.  I worked Wednesday & Thursday.  I actually volunteered to work Thanksgiving, because we were probably going to do our own thanksgiving on the weekend, & holiday pay sounds really good about now.  Before going to work on Thursday, we got ihop, since it was the only thing open. Work went pretty well, but the best part about it, is my friend, Britni, drove all the way to town just to bring me some thanksgiving dinner!  So I still had some turkey, and mashed potatoes, and green beans, and even some pie!

After work, I went straight to Black Friday shopping with Ashley & Alexa, who were already stationed at movie size Toy Story toys.  I was sent to get a Thomas the Train set.  Thats where we were to wait until "midnight." But at about 3 mins til, people started to go crazy & start grabbing stuff.  I grabbed the train set, & ran, and was able to see Ashley get mauled by a bunch of guys! It was a pretty interesting night.

Friday, I found out my friend has never gone to the doctors with out her mom, and didn't really know what to do.  I brought her to, and sat with her at insta-care.  KIDNEY STONES!...the pain she was having, was from kidney stones.  Not so good, but later that evening, Me, Alexa, Ashley, Brian, & mom went and saw HARRY POTTER!  I loved it! It was prolly the best movie they've done (I'm not a huge fan of the earlier movies, but this one is a different story).  I know, you can laugh all you want, but I was really excited to see Harry Potter.

Saturday was "Thanksgiving."  Ashley did most of the cooking, while we helped watch the munchkins. I don't think any one was really complaining, seeing how they are so freakin cute!  So I pretty much was playing peek-a-boo with Brylee and going "rawr" with all the dinosaurs for a good chunck of the morning.  I grubbed on food.  We then watched the BYU/Utah game.  Lex & I met mom & grandma at santa's workshop where mom spoiled me by buying me nice jeans :)  I said my goodbyes to mom, ro, & lex, then brought Britni some of my thanksgiving dinner, since she had to work that night.  I was then off to Trevor's bonfire with tanya & friends.  My phone died while I was out there, so I got home realizing it was about 4 in the morning.  Man! Those pallets took a long time to burn- but I had fun, so I won't complain!

Quite a weekend, don't you think!?!

1. 2. 3. BREAK!!!

Ok, so, can I say, Thanksgiving break is needed very much?!  School & work has been keeping me so busy.  I feel like I barely see or talk to anyone.  I go all week without sleep.  I go all week without getting to relax.  Most of the time, weekends are just the same, but maybe I get an extra hour or two of sleep.  Thanksgiving break really wont be too much of a break, but still, the idea of it is still pretty nice.  I work full shifts on Wednesday & Thursday.  Friday will probably be spent doing homework & getting the food ready to be cooked, & Saturday will be spent cooking, stuffing face, & then cleaning.  I am hoping that I will still be enjoying myself, and get to sit & relax with friends and family.  I am still definately keeping my fingers crossed for this weekend.  I still surprise myself with how hopeful I can be, considering I tend to be quite pessimistic.

I'm thinking this week should go well (knock on wood), considering how it has started off.  Today I woke up at a decent time (Early enough that the day wasn't wasted, but late enough I'm not sleep deprived), and got a couple errands done.  Then I went to Brit's house to watch a movie & Law and Order: SVU & squeezed in a little cat nap on her recliner.  I then met up with Rylee & did skills in the nursing lab, followed by dinner and getting to see my adorable nephew.  I am now home, planning on getting to bed at a decent time, after dealing with a few roommate issues.

Oh yeah!  P.S.  Brylee's birthday was a success.  She was pretty darn cute!

Hello, Mac & Cheese :(

Have you ever had a time, when you look at your bank account and you want to cry?  Well, I sure have, and it just happened tonight!  I knew this semester was really going to drain my account & the very little savings I had, but ACTUALLY seeing it happen, is still heartbreaking.  I look at that little number in my account, and I can hear my stomach growling already, because with my rent & car payment every month, there really isnt much left over for food....or gas, or prescriptions, or going out with friends, or niece's birthday presents.  Pretty much, just enough money to keep a roof over my head & to get me to school/work.

I can't wait for Thanksgiving to come!...but its not for reasons you might think.  I can't wait, because I'm working Thanksgiving, which mean time & a half pay, which as I just mentioned, I can really use!  There are a few more things I can't wait for.  I have so many count downs going on in my head!

I can't wait for:
Sunday- a day I can finally relax, study, & maybe get a little sun in the afternoon
Monday (8th)- I donate plasma (get $20) & work 8 hours!
Wednesday (10th)- PAY DAY!
Friday (12th)- my last day of maternal newborn
                       find out if I got a job, I am so desiring!
Tuesday (16th)- my last day of peds
Thursday (25th)- Thanksgiving....yay for time & a half
December 10th- the last day of the semester!

So, until I get my work hours up for awhile, which probably won't be right around the corner, I think it will be back to top ramen or mac & cheese for my meal of the day! Joy...

Halloween has come & GONE

So halloween is officially here.  Friday we pretty much did a girls night- in costumes (we ended up changing out of our costumes realitively quickly though).  It was a night of junk food, stories, laughs, music, etc.  Yes, there were dances, parties, and djs all over the place that night, but that lil get together was just as good, if not better than all of them.

Tonight, Saturday night, I was able to meet up real quick with a friend and briefly watch a couple innings of the Giants game.  I had to leave early to go trick-or-treating with Bryton & Brylee.  They were Woody & Jessie, from toystory.  Bryton is getting so big! He actually got the concept of trick-or-treating this year--for the most part.  He was so excited, and would run as fast as his little legs would carry him and his bucket full of candy.  Brylee was a trooper, even when she was tired--but she did pretty much refuse to leave her cowgirl hat on.  The night ended with me coming home do homework....and blog.   :)

This next week is going to be a real busy week, but the semester is winding down now! Just 6 weeks left! I can almost taste it!!

Unpacking Baggage

I don't know what I have to do, in order to get over all the baggage left from the crap growing up.  It's a lot easier to say that you completely trust someone, but it doesn't mean that saying it makes all the doubt go away.  I would love to just openly trust those I like, but i just can't stop questioning.  I dwell, and that doesn't help anything either.  How am I supposed to unpack the baggage that I've been lugging around since I can remember?  How do I stop the doubts, the questions, and put my faith in someone again?