1. 2. 3. BREAK!!!

Ok, so, can I say, Thanksgiving break is needed very much?!  School & work has been keeping me so busy.  I feel like I barely see or talk to anyone.  I go all week without sleep.  I go all week without getting to relax.  Most of the time, weekends are just the same, but maybe I get an extra hour or two of sleep.  Thanksgiving break really wont be too much of a break, but still, the idea of it is still pretty nice.  I work full shifts on Wednesday & Thursday.  Friday will probably be spent doing homework & getting the food ready to be cooked, & Saturday will be spent cooking, stuffing face, & then cleaning.  I am hoping that I will still be enjoying myself, and get to sit & relax with friends and family.  I am still definately keeping my fingers crossed for this weekend.  I still surprise myself with how hopeful I can be, considering I tend to be quite pessimistic.

I'm thinking this week should go well (knock on wood), considering how it has started off.  Today I woke up at a decent time (Early enough that the day wasn't wasted, but late enough I'm not sleep deprived), and got a couple errands done.  Then I went to Brit's house to watch a movie & Law and Order: SVU & squeezed in a little cat nap on her recliner.  I then met up with Rylee & did skills in the nursing lab, followed by dinner and getting to see my adorable nephew.  I am now home, planning on getting to bed at a decent time, after dealing with a few roommate issues.

Oh yeah!  P.S.  Brylee's birthday was a success.  She was pretty darn cute!

Hello, Mac & Cheese :(

Have you ever had a time, when you look at your bank account and you want to cry?  Well, I sure have, and it just happened tonight!  I knew this semester was really going to drain my account & the very little savings I had, but ACTUALLY seeing it happen, is still heartbreaking.  I look at that little number in my account, and I can hear my stomach growling already, because with my rent & car payment every month, there really isnt much left over for food....or gas, or prescriptions, or going out with friends, or niece's birthday presents.  Pretty much, just enough money to keep a roof over my head & to get me to school/work.

I can't wait for Thanksgiving to come!...but its not for reasons you might think.  I can't wait, because I'm working Thanksgiving, which mean time & a half pay, which as I just mentioned, I can really use!  There are a few more things I can't wait for.  I have so many count downs going on in my head!

I can't wait for:
Sunday- a day I can finally relax, study, & maybe get a little sun in the afternoon
Monday (8th)- I donate plasma (get $20) & work 8 hours!
Wednesday (10th)- PAY DAY!
Friday (12th)- my last day of maternal newborn
                       find out if I got a job, I am so desiring!
Tuesday (16th)- my last day of peds
Thursday (25th)- Thanksgiving....yay for time & a half
December 10th- the last day of the semester!

So, until I get my work hours up for awhile, which probably won't be right around the corner, I think it will be back to top ramen or mac & cheese for my meal of the day! Joy...

Halloween has come & GONE

So halloween is officially here.  Friday we pretty much did a girls night- in costumes (we ended up changing out of our costumes realitively quickly though).  It was a night of junk food, stories, laughs, music, etc.  Yes, there were dances, parties, and djs all over the place that night, but that lil get together was just as good, if not better than all of them.

Tonight, Saturday night, I was able to meet up real quick with a friend and briefly watch a couple innings of the Giants game.  I had to leave early to go trick-or-treating with Bryton & Brylee.  They were Woody & Jessie, from toystory.  Bryton is getting so big! He actually got the concept of trick-or-treating this year--for the most part.  He was so excited, and would run as fast as his little legs would carry him and his bucket full of candy.  Brylee was a trooper, even when she was tired--but she did pretty much refuse to leave her cowgirl hat on.  The night ended with me coming home do homework....and blog.   :)

This next week is going to be a real busy week, but the semester is winding down now! Just 6 weeks left! I can almost taste it!!

Unpacking Baggage

I don't know what I have to do, in order to get over all the baggage left from the crap growing up.  It's a lot easier to say that you completely trust someone, but it doesn't mean that saying it makes all the doubt go away.  I would love to just openly trust those I like, but i just can't stop questioning.  I dwell, and that doesn't help anything either.  How am I supposed to unpack the baggage that I've been lugging around since I can remember?  How do I stop the doubts, the questions, and put my faith in someone again?

My List

My list of things to do in the next 24 hours:

*Pharmacology paper- teaching about Xanax
*Nursing Psych paper
*Renal/Urinary test
*Donate plasma
*Work 8 hours
*Study for Pharm test
*Nursing Peds reading assignment
*Clean the kitchen
*Work on Pharm worksheet
*Grocery shopping

I guess I should stop blogging/procrasinating and get to work!....but I really don't want to! :/  haha

No Such Thing as a Vacation in the Middle of the Week?? .....Liar!

In the middle of the week, I had a mini little vay-cay.  Me and my friend, Brit, went to a concert up north at UVU.  We saw Auburn, Iyaz, B.o.B. and Jason Derulo.  It was a great trip!  Some how, me and Britni can entertain eachother, without getting bored or sick of eachother, for the 3 1/2 hour car ride there, and then back.  The concert was so good, especially for so cheap.  I was surprised at how well each of the 3 rappers could sing!  They actually have a voice (and quite nice bodies haha)!  We sang along and danced into the night.

After the concert, me and Brit were gonna catch up with an old friend before calling it a night, when we continued to get lost over and over again--on the same two streets too! And I am proud to say it wasn't me being directionally challenged that cause it!  It was pure miscommunication -and some bad directions from a friend of a friend, and the GPS was wrong too....But after about an hour and a half, we got it worked out! We were up sooo late, because of it.  We couldn't "be found" and then take off.  We still had to play!

We woke up after just a couple hours of sleep, rolled outta bed, brushed our teeth, grabbed a bit to eat, and hit the road.  I had a chem lab to go to and Brit had 4 hours of work to go to, back in St. George.  We were both exhausted, but we sang songs at the top of our lungs, and laughed til our abs hurt, until we made it back home.

It was completely worth the exhaustion.  I had a blast!  And I love spending time with Britni!  She is one of my few friends that are consistent, dependable, and there for me.  We always have a good time, whether we are bumming it in pjs, watching movies, going to Texas Roadhouse, or hittin the road for a quick vacation.

Puzzles & Daydreaming

In the past few days, I have experienced things for the first time, seen things I've never seen before.  It wasn't really the easiest at the moment, and honestly, even at the present.  But keeping the big picture in mind, and not just thinking about this minute, it is good.  It gives me hope.  I know that there is some good out there, and I can find it.

The thing that gets me is that, sometimes, what you want, and what you want now, don't match.  It doesn't make any sense to me how that works.  Its like saying you can put two pieces of the puzzle together, and they fit! Okay, now you have to put them into place with the rest of the puzzle--now they don't fit.  It defys logic.  I am a passionate girl--you'd be kidding yourself if you thought otherwise.  I am passion, but I am smart too.  I am logical.  It mystifies me.

My schedule has not lightened up much.  It is still hectic, and I should be doing something just about every second of the day, but I have found myself not being able to focus on anything! Everything is taking me so much longer to get done.  I can't focus, but the crazy thing is, I can't tell you what in the world I'm thinking about or doing that's occupying all my time.  I will look down at my book, daze out into my own, unknown thoughts, and when I look up, almost two hours have gone by.  That's not good.  I better get some weights strapped to my feet to keep me here in reality.  I don't have time for day dreaming.  Day dreaming gets me into too much trouble.